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I went into business to lose money.<\/strong><\/p>\n I know – it makes no sense, right? And yet, that’s exactly what kept happening to me for the last 20+ years.<\/p>\n Even though I always felt a strong calling to put my entrepreneurial mindset to use, it never seemed to work out.<\/p>\n Lemonade stands, hemp necklaces, multi-level-marketing, from 8 years old to my early twenties…<\/p>\n All those businesses had 1 thing in common – I lost money instead of making any.<\/p>\n “I’m a failure”, I thought. How else would I explain it?<\/p>\n Disappointed in myself, I chose the predetermined career path society advertised – go to college and find a nice, “steady” 9 to 5 job. My parents would be proud and no one would question my decision since it was \u201cnormal,\u201d but deep down, I knew I wasn\u2019t being true to myself.\u00a0<\/p>\n My self-doubt grew and even led me to believe that college wasn’t enough for me to find a good job… so I went to grad school, postponing what I believed to be inevitable.<\/p>\n When I finally found a job, I thought…<\/p>\n “Hey, this isn’t too bad! I have good benefits, decent hours, and even a few quick promotions.”<\/p>\n And indeed, it was all going great until\u2026<\/p>\n My life was turned upside down by a mysterious illness.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n Winded from just sitting for 5 minutes, uncontrollable body tremors, swollen and bruised internal organs that felt like they were being punched 24\/7, constant heart palpitations, body aches that kept me from even lifting a glass of water without pain, and the sickest I\u2019ve ever felt in my life, by far. The flu seemed like a fairy tale in comparison.<\/p>\n Conversations became one word replies (if at all). Thinking itself became difficult; common words like \u201cwall\u201d became blank thoughts, my head physically hurting from trying to think of the word.\u00a0<\/p>\n I\u2019ve always been a positive person, it\u2019s part of who I am. After a few weeks, I was optimistic I\u2019d get through this illness just fine. After all, the doctor said \u201cIt\u2019ll pass in about 4-8 weeks.\u201d<\/p>\n After 2 months, that optimism started to fade as I kept getting sicker and sicker.<\/p>\n 3 months in, things were getting worse by the week-my foundation was shaken. Netflix was on in the background to make time seem like I wasn\u2019t frozen in this nightmare.<\/p>\n 4 months in, I was in utter despair, unsure if I\u2019d ever just feel good in my body again. My entire body was in constant pain 24\/7, yet there was still a string of hope I was holding onto; I couldn\u2019t give up. After all, I had a child coming-I couldn\u2019t leave him fatherless and my wife without a partner. \u00a0<\/p>\n Luckily my job had great benefits. I still had a full time income for 6 months, even though I was only able to scrape out 4 hours a day in bed, responding to emails.<\/p>\n But, after 6 months of this, I was put on full time medical leave.\u00a0<\/p>\n \u201cHow am I supposed to support my family?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n \u201cWith a baby on the way, how am I going to help?\u201d (My wife got pregnant the same weekend I became ill\u2026the irony is not lost on me!)<\/strong><\/p>\n \u201cWill I lose my car, my house, and everything I put in ALL those hours of work and education for?\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n Everything I built my identity on was ripped out from under my feet. My trust in the medical system-flattened. My faith-going through the dark night of the soul. When so much of your identity is in your accomplishments and abilities, what are you left with when you\u2019re unable to do anything but lay in bed, helpless?<\/p>\n After one year of this illness, I sat down to write a will, unsure how much longer I\u2019d be able to keep going. It was at that point, I was determined to do whatever it would take to heal and have everything I want in life. That healing is my birthright. That a successful business is my birthright. That all of my hopes and dreams are the hopes and dreams God placed within my heart. And that I CAN (and WILL) make them happen.\u00a0<\/p>\n That \u201csteady job\u201d-couldn\u2019t rely on it now. Same for my healthcare team-I realized I was on my own. The ventures I had \u201ctried\u201d to make work my whole life HAD to work. Same for my health, I had to figure it out and get well, not just for myself, but for my family. There was no going back-this time, it was going to work.<\/p>\n Now the real reason the businesses didn\u2019t succeed?\u00a0<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t believe in myself.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n Plain and simple.\u00a0<\/p>\n I didn\u2019t trust my body could heal either.\u00a0<\/p>\n How can you really succeed if you don\u2019t believe in yourself?<\/strong><\/p>\n You may be taking the right steps, but if you aren\u2019t confident in them, you\u2019re going to revisit your strategy over and over again like a golden retriever chasing its own tail. You lose a lot of time and confidence, then end up right where you started.\u00a0<\/p>\n You deserve the business you\u2019ve always dreamt about; the health and vibrant energy you were designed to embody. Let\u2019s get you the freedom and confidence you\u2019ve always known is possible, but haven\u2019t been quite sure how to obtain. \u00a0<\/p>\n Are you ready to make it work this time?<\/p>\n